As I walked out of my last exam yesterday, it felt like a massive weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
Second year has ripped me to shreds, and I can now piece the broken bits of me back together.
When I was a first year, my friends in second/third year did warn me that second year will be a tough one. I took that advice on board, but I didn’t know it was going to be like THIS.
I’m not trying to scare you first years out there. I am simply…raising awareness?
I feel like there’s a big jump from first year to second year. First year was bearable because most of the things were covered in year 12, so you were building on the things you’ve already learned.
Then it just got harder, and harder.
In saying that, I love a challenge. But I didn’t know how to cope with this sudden leap, and didn’t know how to keep up with this workload.
I was abusing my body to keep up with these academic demands. Running on very little sleep, excessive caffeine intakes, skipping out on exercise, not eating well etc.
And I asked myself…
Confession: I was planning to withdraw this semester.
I was so over uni.
I felt like I could be doing more with my life than just sitting in lectures, working on assignments, studying etc. I didn’t want to learn THIS way anymore.
Lecturers were throwing all this information at me, but what good is this information if I don’t know to USE and APPLY it? Every semester, every year…it’s been about doing the pre-reqs to one day learn the ‘real’ exciting stuff. But when is THAT day going to come!? (The answer better be in 3rd year!)
Plus, there is so much in the world that I haven’t discovered and experienced. I wanted to disappear, get lost in other countries, and explore the big world outside of uni! That’s why I’m trying to get organise to go on exchange. I emphasise on the word TRYING. I’m looking for a subject to do overseas in our winter break next year. So far, I can’t find one that fits that time frame.
This year I have also reduced my study load from 4 to 3 subjects.
People suggested that I should prioritise and stop doing some of my extracurricular things, (including this blog) to free up some time. And I couldn’t! If I did, I would actually lose my sanity. One cannot study 24/7. It’s just not healthy.
I was hesitant at the thought of underloading because I really wanted to graduate with my second year friends. You know – “we start uni together, we graduate together”. But, it has been a very good decision, one that I do not regret. I could not have imagined going 4 subjects this semester. 3 was overwhelming as it is. It’s better for my learning as well.
What I’ve enjoyed about second year is that I get to specialise more into my major, and learn more about the exciting zoology world!
If you’re after weird, crazy animal facts – I’ve got them. Look up #zoologyfacts on my twitter.
Banana slugs are hermaphrodites (male & female). After they mate, one party amputates the other’s genitals. Ouch! #zoologyfacts (2/4)
— Daphane Ng (@daphane_ng) November 9, 2013
I now understand why maths is important in zoology – something I didn’t understand when they were trying to teach me stats for lab reports for the first time. And I know I’ll regret saying this, but I’ve started to enjoy sifting through the data, finding the patterns, and draw inferences from the numbers.
And I wasn’t a fan of the physiology side of zoology, but I can now see the relationship between physiology and how that has a big impact on animal behaviour (something I want to further specialise in).
Although this year didn’t turn out the way I would have hoped in an academic sense, I wouldn’t have had it any other way!
I survived 2013 at Melbourne University, and that’s a win. I am still at uni, I haven’t dropped out, things are good!
Plus, I have a roof over my head, clean water, food, access to medicine…things that people affected by Typhoon Haiyan do not have access to. Please do consider donating! They seriously need the help. You can donate here.
To those who still have exams – keep it up! You’re so close. Good luck!
Goodbye second year!